Guide to tame my villainous husbands - Chapter 1094

Chapter 1094: Always be enough (2) Chapter 1094: Always be enough (2) “Why will I care about your past when we are living in the present, damn it?” Mo Qiang cursed causing Yin Fu to flinch.  He felt a sense of fear rise in his heart.  ‘No.’ ‘No…No…No..’  ‘That face -don’t make that face.’  ‘He didn’t mean to make her sad.’ ‘So why…’ ‘Why was she looking at him like this?’  “When will you start believing in me a bit more?” Mo Qiang asked with a frustrated sigh.

She couldn’t understand Yin Fu, she had done everything to make him understand that he was special to her.  Even if she was not perfect and she never said it out aloud…she truly cared for this mer.

If not, why would she let him carry their child?  Why would she care for him?  ‘Once again … I…I made her feel guilty and sad,’ Yin Fu thought as he looked at Mo Qiang who was staring at him with a stern expression.  That’s because you are a plague.

One that everyone needs to avoid.  The words that his daddy said to him came flooding out of the box where he had stuffed all his bad memories.  What if Mo Qiang starts avoiding him as well like everyone else?  What if she found out that the reason the child was harmed so easily was because of his distorted womb?  That he was injected with all kinds of aphrodisiacs?

And that though it was easy for him to get pregnant, it was just as easy for him to miscarry?  “No!

No!” Yin Fu shrieked as soon as that thought came to his head.

His sudden actions caused Mo Qiang to jump in surprise but Yin Fu was so out of it that he couldn’t pay attention to anything else but that dark, sinister thought.  “I don’t…I don’t want to get divorced… please don’t divorce me.” He pleaded with Mo Qiang while holding her wrist.

Mo Qiang frowned upon hearing his words, however, when she saw his condition she sighed and said, “I am not going to divorce you.

Like I told you earlier when you woke up, this was not your mistake.

It was mine.

I should have been careful and not signed that form-” “I am such a selfish person.”  Yin Fu didn’t seem to hear her words as he continued speaking, “There is no way I don’t know that you like me – no, you might even love me since you treat me so well and I am so happy just thinking about it every day.

However, the more I fall in love with you … the more I wish that you had never met me.”  “I am not the kind of mer anyone would want to marry ..

when I think about how you could have had a much better husband and that you will meet people better than me but still remain stuck with me …I feel even more uncomfortable.”  “The only way I could have made you happy was by giving birth to our child but I am so useless that I even lost him.

Even though you were basically forced to marry me …I can’t even do the bare minimum for you.

If you had married someone else then they would have protected their child well…their physique wouldn’t have affected their child.”  “But I -this wretched body of mine…” Yin Fu lowered his head with tears filled in his eyes.

He knew that he was fortunate enough, that Mo Qiang could have divorced him but instead, she gave him another chance after what he had done to her.  She even showed him generosity and let him carry her child and what did he do?

He lost the child!  Mo Qiang was shocked by the words that came out of Yin Fu’s lips.

She blinked her eyes with a confused expression as she said, “…What..are you…talking about?

Ah Fu, why are you being negative?”  ‘You will never find happiness, Yin Fu,’ his mother’s cold voice echoed in his head and Yin Fu shivered as he clung hard to Mo Qiang.  He blinked the tears out of his eyes as he confessed, “B-because without you…

I know that I will be a shell of a human.

Until you came into my life- I have never once felt that I was happy, that I was alive.”  He thought of his little self and continued, “When I was young… I only received neglect from my parents -I was forced by my mother to serve her clients and when I refused she injected me with all kinds of aphrodisiacs.

Of course, she never succeeded,” he added hurriedly when Mo Qiang’s eyes widened.  Seeing the worry in her eyes he softly smiled and said, “But ever since you got better … I finally feel like I am alive.

You are the one who got me out of the darkness.

If you had ignored me like you used to – if you were to leave me now…

I don’t know how to live without you.”  “And it scares me when I think that there is a possibility that you might not be in my future.”  “But if you were to ask for a divorce, how am I supposed to refuse?

When I know that I am nothing but a burden forced upon your head?” Yin Fu cried out and Mo Qiang felt her heart twist as he leaned forward and leaned his head against her.

“Mother-in-law made you marry me because she wanted to protect me.

But when I think about you…

I can’t help but feel sorry… there are so many things that I cannot do for you even if I love you.”  The tears that he had been holding back flooded and broke free as he sobbed and cried, “It is not that I don’t understand..

but I love you so much that I cannot trust myself.

I cannot – I am afraid that if you were to tell me to leave, I might go crazy and hurt you … even when I know that I cannot give you what you deserve-” “Enough,” Mo Qiang could no longer hear anymore, she reached forward and hugged him.

“What are you talking about you silly little pervert?

I don’t know why you are making predictions when you can’t even tell what we are going to eat tomorrow morning?”  “Why do you keep preparing yourself for that kind of future?

Can’t you see that I hate seeing you in pain?

Don’t talk like I am a douchebag who will abandon you.”  “The day I slept with you- no, the day you refused to divorce me…

I was already prepared to spend the rest of my life with you,” she wiped his tears with her thumbs as she continued, “Not a single day went by where you didn’t exist in my future, you have been there all the time even when I am old and wrinkly.”  “If being with me is what makes you happy then I will stick with you until you get sick of me … believe in me,” Mo Qiang pleaded.

“Believe in yourself.

You are enough, Ah Fu.

You will always be enough.”  Yin Fu looked at Mo Qiang with tears trickling down from his eyes.

Though Mo Qiang didn’t say that she loved him, Yin Fu knew that it was because her feelings for him were way beyond that.  Thank the heavens… thank the heavens for letting him meet Mo Qiang.

Who loved him despite his flaws.

Even though he couldn’t even keep a child safe.  “Qi-Qi- WAHHHH!!!” Yin Fu threw himself in Mo Qiang’s arms.

He was apologetic and sorry to lose their child but at the same time, he was relieved that his wife –didn’t chase him away.