Male Lead's Canon Fodder Wife - Chapter 861

Chapter 861: Doubts ( 1 )
“Brother Chenze, I will handle this matter. You can leave it to me. Our production team does not tolerate this kind of behavior,” Han Yuheng added.

Li Chenze nodded after listening to his words and said, “Then I would like to thank you on behalf of the Zhang family.”

Han Yuheng waved his hand and said, “This is my job as the team leader. What’s more, you have helped my family so much, I should do something to repay your help.”

Li Chenze raised his eyebrows when he heard this. Before, Han Yuheng only regarded his status as something he could get benefits from. For him, if his job could be done by others, he would never do it himself.

Therefore, most of the time, it is the deputy team leader who is working and helping the villagers. If someone wants to ask Han Yuheng for help, he must give him a benefit.

Therefore, for him to say that he would handle this matter by himself is really out of character for him. From the day he came to borrow food from his father, he seemed to become a different person.

Noticing his gaze, Han Yuheng chuckled and asked, “Brother Chenze, do you think it’s strange that I promised to handle this matter personally?”

“Well, if I hadn’t known you since childhood, I might have thought you were a fake,” Li Chenze said bluntly.

Hearing this, Bai Luyun looked at her husband’s back thoughtfully. So, it’s not just her who thinks this way. Lately, she had often felt strangely depressed at the thought of leaving her husband despite her heart wanting to leave him.

Although her husband has changed and seems to become a better person, things that were done and the pain caused by his previous actions and words cannot be erased with just an apology.

Therefore, in a corner of her heart, she always wanted to leave him and start a new life. As much as she loved him, she still couldn’t bring herself to totally forgive him.

But the strange thing is that every time the word divorce appears on the tip of her tongue, her heart will hurt as if it is tightly held by a pair of invisible hands, leaving her speechless.

She tried several times and each time she almost passed out from the pain. Whenever she recovers from the pain, she always feels like something is wrong and someone is controlling her emotions.

Because she was worried that she might die if she persisted, she stopped struggling and just accepted the status quo. But now when she heard Li Chenze’s words, she felt that there must be an existence she couldn’t understand, but yet that existence controlled everything.

Not noticing his wife’s strange behavior, Han Yuheng sighed and said, “Well, it did take me a long time to realize that the me before was not me, and the me now is the real me. Although both are me, the things I did before were beyond my control.”

After he finished speaking, Li Chenze looked at him with a puzzled face while Bai Luyun held her son in her arms with her trembling hands.

She understood what her husband just said. She remembered that the person she liked at that time was clearly Zhang Ermu. When did she start loving her husband, and what were the reasons?

Bai Luyun tried hard to recall the memories between herself and her husband, but she couldn’t think of anything that could make her love him so much.

Thinking about it now, that feeling was so weird. The moment she met him on a blind date, her mind went blank. Just after meeting him, she agreed to his proposal without hesitation.

Thinking about it now, her eyes widened in shock. She held her son closer, borrowing his warmth.

‘Do I really love him, or are my feelings not my own?’ she thought.

Fear and disbelief sprouted in her heart like poisonous flowers, shattering her sanity.

‘This is impossible. It’s out of logic. If I didn’t love him, why did I agree to marry him in the first place?’

Suddenly, a distant memory appeared in her mind. That day, Zhang Ermu ran to her house and asked her if she really wanted to marry Han Yuheng. When he said that the person she loved was him and not Han Yuheng, his face turned pale. He also asked her what was wrong. She had changed so much that he almost didn’t recognize her.

Back then, she told him that she had never loved him because he thought too much. She was kind to him because she pitied him. Now that she has found a good man, of course she will marry him.

After saying this, she closed the door, and they never contacted each other again until that day when she went to him for help. Recalling that memory, Bai Luyun felt so painful in her heart.

‘How could I say those hurtful words to him?’

When this thought came to her mind, she felt like she was finally awake. The previous fog slowly disappeared from her mind.

Bai Luyun looked at her smiling husband with complicated eyes. ‘That day he vomited blood, his personality changed totally. Has he been controlled by something before? Does he really love me, or…’

She didn’t dare to think about it any more. Now that she is finally awake, she regrets her original choice very much. However, she cannot go back to the past, nor can she change her current situation. She gave birth to Han Yuheng’s child, which was impossible for her and Zhang Ermu.

It would be a lie to say that she had no feelings for him after living together for so many years.

But now, she didn’t know if this feeling was real or if it was controlled by something. Is everything she has experienced before true or false? She wasn’t sure anymore.

At this moment, the only thing she could do was try to calm down and think more.