Strongest Superhuman System - Chapter 411

Chapter 411: Luna’s Resolve
Luna tried her best to tune out the anima’s taunts as she stared at it wearily. Luna had been listening to the anima’s taunts all this while, and even though she tried her best not to let it get to her, she couldn’t help the feelings of anger that the words brought from inside her! How dare a mere anima tell her that she was weak!? It was nothing but an abomination, and Luna would never accept that an anima had more control over water than she did!

But then how could Luna explain losing control over her constructs? Luna couldn’t believe she lost control of her constructs that easily! Luna was the best water manipulator in the entire world as far as she was concerned. She knew that there was no one that could challenge her in that!

So what was this!? Why was the anima able to take over her constructs so easily!?

‘Am I… weaker than it?’

This thought crossed through Luna’s mind, and she immediately tried to shake her head to get rid of it! Luna knew how dangerous a thought like that could be, and she refused to allow it to take root in her head! But once the thought entered, it refused to leave. It was like a virus that infected her every thought and poisoned her confidence!

Luna created construct after construct, attacking the anima in a haze of rapid fire that tore the surroundings asunder! But it was not enough. It was never enough. No matter how fast Luna created the constructs, the anima was able to deconstruct them even faster! No matter what Luna attacked it with, the anima was able to deal with it! Luna was slowly feeling her confidence chipping away the longer this went on! Luna was thinking up plan after plan again and again, and the Eldritch was just tearing it apart with raw strength!

‘You’ve been holding yourself back, haven’t you? Not just your power, you’ve been holding your potential back as well. Are you so scared to go all out because you are afraid that you’ll get left behind? Or maybe, are you afraid that you’ll leave everyone behind and be left alone?’

A thought from Luna’s conversation with Mark long ago suddenly passed through Luna’s mind, and Luna felt her heart shake as she realized with growing horror that Mark had been right.

‘What have I been doing all this time? Mark was right. I should’ve done more. I should’ve tried to get more power instead of just being comfortable with the amount of strength that I had. Why was I so scared of being alone? If I had trained for even one more month, even one more day, would I have easily beaten this anima?’

Luna put her hand up, trying desperately to stop a barrage of ice and water that slammed into her side! She felt something stab through her leg, and her mana immediately got to work on healing it! She poured her mana out again and created more mist to try and block the monster’s vision!

As she fought, images of the past ran through Luna’s mind. The reason why she didn’t want to be alone again. Luna had been alone for a very long time. Right from the start, Luna’s mother didn’t want her. Luna was abandoned at her father’s doorstep as a baby by her mother, and Luna never got to even know what her mother looked like. Luna’s father was an alcoholic and a recluse who refused to go out at all. Her father only liked to stay inside and play games.

It didn’t take long for her father to realize that the only way to make money was by creating a Twitch account and playing games in front of it with Luna sitting beside him. Luna was extremely beautiful, so if she was near him, people would be more willing to watch and support him! It was a foolproof plan as far as he was concerned, and unsurprisingly, it worked! Luna was just too beautiful, and no one would just scroll past a page that had such a stunning girl in it without stopping to give it a glance! Her father’s Twitch page became very popular, and he was making large sums every day just from showing off his daughter.

Luna was kept in a small room and fed just enough so that she wouldn’t look too malnourished. Luna was only let out of the room whenever her father wanted to stream, and he would force her to smile and laugh at his jokes while threatening her that if she didn’t do it, she wouldn’t get a meal at all the next day. Luna was just a child then, so she didn’t know how to stand up for herself, and she just did whatever her father asked her to do. Luna smiled, laughed, and waved at the camera whenever her father asked her to do it.

It wasn’t until the Armageddon attacked that Luna was able to finally walk out from that underground basement on her own for the first time in her life. Luna looked around her ruined apartment, and she saw that most of the house had broken and collapsed. There were signs of rushing all around the house. Clothes were thrown about, and some dollar bills were spread out on the ground from when her father must have been trying to gather them. But when Luna looked towards the door that led out of the building, she could see a large pile of stones that had fallen from the ceiling during the tremors, and a hand sticking out from under the stones.

Luna immediately understood that her father was reaching out for some of the money that fell from his hand when the rocks fell and crushed him. Luna didn’t even feel anything when she realized what had happened. She didn’t feel happy, and she didn’t feel sad either. Her father had been commanding her emotions for so long now that Luna had already forgotten how to feel anything.

Then there was KING. KING crashed into her life like a comet, and in the short time that they spent together, he saved her. He made her feel something for the first time, and she figured out what she wanted to do with her life. KING was the one who saved Luna. But even KING ended up leaving her behind. He went back to battle and died to the Armageddon in order to save everyone. Luna hated it. She hated feeling alone, and she hated being abandoned over and over again. When Luna first discovered her power, she did everything she could to make sure she was not alone. She joined the Neptune guild, tried to make friends, and even tried to help people. But that feeling of loneliness remained. Luna could see how much stronger she was than everyone else. No matter how fast people tried to catch up to her, Luna just grew even faster. This ostracized her in the Neptune guild and made the other guild members angry at her, like it was somehow her fault that she was growing faster than them.

‘Was it at this moment? Yes, when I was nineteen in the Neptune guild.’

That was when Luna started to hinder her own growth. That was when Luna realized that no matter what she did, she was going to be alone because of her strength, and she started to make herself grow slower subconsciously! Even after she formed her own guild and started to train more to improve her strength, Luna was still holding back. She was always afraid that the members of her guild would see her as a freak just like her former guild. Luna was afraid that they would leave her just like KING and her mother.