The Alpha's Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger. - Chapter 116

Chapter 116: Fated together…
Ramsey

The confession hung in the air as she stared at me. I felt as if a heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Almost when I thought she wasn’t going to respond, she scoffed.

“Love? You? The same man who rejected me countless times. The same Ramsey who pushed me away, who made me feel like I was nothing? Do you even know what you’re talking about?’

My face tightened. “You don’t understand,” I began but she cut me off.

“I have all the time, please enlighten me,” she demanded. “What exactly do I not understand? How you’ve treated me? How you’ve made me feel?”

My hands clenched and unclenched at my sides as I tried to stifle my emotions.

“Everything I did back then was to protect you,”

She laughed, “Protect me? From what? From myself? From your own feelings? From our mate bond?”

“From me,” I said softly. “I was scared to love my mate. I mean, I was going to settle with a woman but I never had plans to do that with my mate. I’ve seen first-hand what happens if someone loses their mate. My grandfather… he…” I trailed off taking a deep breath.

“When my grandmother died, he tried to kill himself severally and my parents had just died a few months ago. I spent my years as a preteen looking after him, always being on the edge that one day I’ll walk in and see him lying lifeless… dead…” I swiped at the tears that gathered at the corner of my eyes.

“I thought if I pretended that the mate bond didn’t exist, that I would forget about you.”

“You think pushing me away protects me?” she asked. “You think breaking my heart was some noble act or as a result of some childhood trauma?”

I stepped closer. “Every time I got close to you, every moment I allowed myself to feel, I was reminded of how cruel living as a Lycan was. I didn’t want you to suffer. If they knew about us, they would use you against me. Being a Lycan leader is a precarious situation.”

“So, you decided to hurt me first?” her voice cracked. “You decided that your public image in this perfect world of the Lycans was more important than my feelings?”

The tension heightened in the room. I reached out, almost involuntarily, my fingers nearly touching her face before I pulled back.

“I thought I was saying you,” I whispered. “I thought the distance was the only way to keep you from their backlash.”

Her eyes glistened with unshed tears. “And now?” she asked. “Now that you’ve decided to love me and tell me you love me? Because you’re still a Lycan Leader, perfection is still important in this world… What changed?”

“Everything changed. You’re the Moonsinger, Lyla… no one would object to us being mates, if anything, they’ll welcome it. We can finally be together.”

She stared at me for a few seconds and then laughed with tears rolling down her eyes. “I am a fool,” she murmured still laughing. “I forgot how good you were at hurting me. How every time we meet you always look for a new way to hurt me, to give me reasons why we should never be together.”

“C’mon, Lyla… we can be together. If you accept this gift… you’ll complete me and I you and the power of the White Moon Throne will be unlocked.”

She shook her head. “So, you love me because I mean something now, right? Because although I have other identities like deviant and wolfless but being a Moonsinger outweighs them right?”

“The way you make it sound… that’s not what I mean….”

“That’s exactly what you mean, Ramsey,” she sniffed. “The day I stop being the Moonsinger you’d discard me again, right? So, let’s do what we’re best at doing…rejecting each other.”

“Lyla… you don’t understand. That’s not what I mean,” I rushed on. “I mean, no one would…”

“I, Lyla Woodland reject you Alpha Ramsey as my mate and accept your rejection…”

I felt so helpless seeing her standing there crying. I didn’t know what to do because yet again she misunderstood.

What I meant was, that no one would see reasons to hurt her. That being a Moonsinger would mean no one would whisper behind her back, that she can finally walk with her head held high…

“I hope we don’t make this a habit, Ramsey because I’m going to keep rejecting you. Excuse me.”

She turned to leave and something inside me snapped…

I reached out for her and grabbed her, wrapping my hands around her form. “Lyla, please…” I begged. “You know damn well what I mean and I’m sorry if you think I only want you now because you’re a Moonsinger, I’ve always wanted you… gods! I’ve wanted you every day for the past four years… I’ve wanted you since you came back… I lie in my bed every night, dreaming of this moment, of having you in my arms and sharing my sunrise and sunset with you. Please…”

“Let me go, Ramsey,” she said coldly. “You’re not doing me a favour and if you cannot love and accept for who I am first, I’ll constantly be forced to keep up your expectations so you don’t wake up one morning and regret meeting me. So, Nah… I’m good.”

“Lyla…” I pulled away from her, making her face me. “Is this about Nathan? I apologized, I said I was sorry but I was frantic. I needed you…”

“For your gratification, for your Wolf!” she yelled. “Anything to make you feel better to take care of that itch in your pants. You didn’t look for me because you cared so much about me, Ramsey… You didn’t do it because you couldn’t stand being away from me… you did it for yourself… to soothe your heart… my constant presence calms your wolf, keeps you grounded and maybe once in a while… sex… What about me? Have you stopped to think about what I want? What will I stand to gain if agree and be with you?”

I ran my hands through my hair “Lyla… baby… that’s not true…”

“When will you put me first?!” she cried, her voice carrying throughout the hall. “Why am I in constant competition with laws and traditions made by dead people? When will you do it because it’s me and it’ll make me happy? When will I matter?”

Her chest was heaving now, and tears were rolling down her eyes uncontrollably.

“Fine,” she threw her hand up in the air “I get it… I have no wolf, I lost my powers because I was careless and maybe I will settle for anyone who shows me the slightest attention… I want to be happy. I want to know that someone loves me for me and not because I can sing and spew silver lights from my fingertips. I want to know that someone loves me because I cannot give anything but myself… I deserve to be happy…”

She swiped at her face angrily, closed her eyes and took a deep breath. When she opened them, she met my gaze.

“Fine… I cannot deny that there’s still something between us but I need you to break off your engagement with Cassidy, tell everyone that we’re fated together and I’ll be with you.”