The Female Leads Truly Loves You - Chapter 350

Chapter 350: Follow the path you think is right and never look back
Ava felt as if her dream hadn’t fully ended. Under a barrage of tangled thoughts, she quickly fell asleep again.

But this time, amidst the hazy confusion, she heard a peculiar voice. It sounded… a lot like her own, but colder, deeper.

Then, in the dream, it conversed with her, which felt very strange.

She felt as if she were enveloped in fog.

All she could hear was the other voice saying, “You feel it, don’t you?”

It was a strange phrase, almost like a hidden riddle.

Ava couldn’t see anything; all around her was fog, and she felt lost.

“Feel what?”

“Your brother, and you.”

Instantly, Ava pictured a scene.

In that surreal yet somewhat realistic dream, she recalled how she flirtatiously conversed with Sam.

And how she took drastic actions, almost allowing Sam’s penis to enter her vagina.

Even… the previous scene seemed to reappear before her eyes, making her relive it once again.

“What… what is this?!”

“Haven’t you seen it already?”

Ava didn’t know where the voice was coming from, only that hearing it gave her a strange feeling, as if it came from her own body, as if she herself was speaking, which felt oddly familiar.

“I…”

“Isn’t this the scene you’ve longed for?”

“…I haven’t.”

“Why deny it? Isn’t this the bond you want? You want your brother to belong entirely to you, right? Haven’t you dreamt about it, wishing your brother fucked only with you, isn’t that so?”

Ava’s emotions cooled down.

She thought for a moment, then firmly said, “What I hope for is that both he and I can be happy, I hope my happiness involves him.”

“What’s the difference?”

The voice continued to probe.

Ava sensed something was off, but she felt she wasn’t smart enough to pinpoint exactly what it was.

But based on the question, she instinctively answered, “Of course it’s different… I don’t want to force him, nor do I know his true feelings, I don’t want to coerce him.”

“What’s this about coercion and force… Isn’t your own happiness something you should fight for? Haven’t you said before, kindness is just a way to oppress yourself, and consideration is giving others the blade to hurt you?”

“I never said that!”

Ava immediately denied.

“You did.”

“When did I say that? How can you prove it?!”

Ava was getting angry.

“Of course I can prove it, because…” Just then, Ava’s vision blurred, and she saw… another person, another… herself?!

An exact replica of herself.

Ava’s eyes widened in disbelief. What was happening? Performing magic in a dream? How could she have such a strange dream? Why did everything feel so off today?

“Because I am you, so I can prove it.”

She said so.

When she finished speaking, Ava seemed to understand something.

Because she is ‘Ava’, so whatever she says is correct… right?

No.

Ava shook her head again.

“No, you’re not me.”

“I am you, I am the other you hidden inside your heart.”

“Even if that’s true, you can’t represent me.”

Ava was very stubborn at this moment, and the ‘Ava’ in front of her showed a hint of surprise.

“Do you even know what you’re saying? You’re suppressing the real you. Everyone has a dark side, everyone has their own selfish desires. No one can completely discard these, and if you try, you’ll only make yourself miserable, don’t you understand?”

The words of ‘Ava’ were like hammer blows, like thunderclaps.

Falling continuously, as if to strike at the most vulnerable part of the young girl’s heart.

Ava lowered her head, seemingly unable to face this most real version of herself.

But she said softly, “I know what I’m doing, I don’t feel oppressed.”

“You still don’t understand? I am you, of course, I know whether you feel oppressed! Are you going to deny my existence forever? Continue as before, hopelessly persisting? Accept me… you’ll become braver, a bit more selfish, and only then will you get what you truly want.”

Was this seduction?

Ava knew it wasn’t.

She was increasingly feeling that this indeed was another version of herself.

An unacknowledged self.

Everyone has selfish desires, she was right.

Ava herself had selfish desires; she often thought, what if her brother hadn’t left Cedarwood to study? What if he had always stayed in Cedarwood? Would he truly belong to her when she realized her feelings for him?

If there was no Angel… if there were no other girls, would her brother belong only to her?

Ava raised her head, looking honestly at the other version of herself.

She said…

—

“Wake up? Have breakfast, I’m off to school, and you might have to fend for yourself for lunch.”

When Ava opened her eyes, what she saw was the light filtering through the curtains.

What she heard was her brother’s familiar gentle voice.

She looked at Sam, the sunlight shining on his golden hair, full of youthful vigor, his face like a male protagonist straight out of a comic book, youthful and tender.

Her gaze flickered slightly, as if impulsively wanting to say something.

But Sam’s puzzled look came her way.

“What’s wrong?”

Ava shook her head.

“Nothing… I might not have woken up yet.”

“Alright, remember to dress warmly, it’s cold in the morning.”

“Got it.”

Ava’s familiar smile appeared on her face, and Sam glanced at her, said nothing more, and quietly left the room.

Looking at the things on the table, she frowned slightly.

Something felt off.

When Ava got dressed, finished her morning routine, and sat at the dining table, Sam sat across from his sister.

“Did you rest well last night?”

Ava seemed a bit slow to respond, then looked up.

“Ah… pretty good, I guess I was just really tired, I fell asleep quickly.”

Sam nodded. “What did you do yesterday that made you so tired? You didn’t seem this tired even after the last competition and drinking.”

“I don’t know… maybe it’s emotional fatigue.”

“Why would someone as young as you feel emotionally exhausted?”

Ava thought for a moment, then took a sip of milk.

“Brother, do you think… everyone has another self?”

Sam looked up at her. “What do you mean?”

Ava immediately regretted bringing it up and shook her head.

“Nothing… just curious, just asking.”

As she lowered her head to continue eating, she heard Sam’s calm voice from across the table.

“Of course, everyone has another self, I probably do too. So don’t be afraid of such things, because that’s also just another self, not necessarily the real you. Everything has two sides, people are the same, it’s just difficult to recognize yourself.”

“Isn’t there no solution then?”

Sam smiled at his sister.

“Of course, there is.”

“What?” The girl blinked her beautiful eyes.

Sam smiled and said.

“That is to follow the path you think is right and never look back.”

“But… that’s difficult, it’s like you said nothing.”

Sam smiled at Ava.

“It’s okay, these are the troubles you should encounter as you grow up. Once you solve these problems, you’ll truly be an adult. Keep it up, I’m off to school.”

Sam finished his meal and stood up, Ava nodded.

“Be careful on the road.”

“Yeah, don’t worry. If you get hungry at noon, you can order takeout yourself, or if you don’t like takeout, you can wait at home, I’ll come back as soon as I can.”

“Okay~”

Watching her energetic response, Sam breathed a sigh of relief. It seemed there were no serious consequences, perhaps some residual effects, but Ava probably just considered it an unrealistic dream.

Sam quickly grabbed his backpack and left the apartment.

Suddenly, the room seemed very empty.

Ava finished eating and methodically cleaned up.

Then…

She looked out the window at the scenery, the sunlight falling down, but the wind was strong, blowing the leaves, falling to the ground like a rain of leaves.

She suddenly had an idea.

So she got dressed, put on her shoes, and walked out the door.

In the unfamiliar morning, walking on the street where leaves occasionally fell, she didn’t know why, but even though the leaves were yellowed, they still seemed very clean.

The winter wind blew against her, like an embrace, more like a push.

It made her feel her insignificance in the face of nature.

Very insignificant.

But Ava somewhat enjoyed this cold and desolate feeling, although she was alone, she could imagine how Sam walked alone on this street to school every day, and how he returned home alone from this street.

Maybe… it wouldn’t always be just him returning home, right? Maybe there were other girls’ company, but that seemed to have nothing to do with her.

He was alone in Kuhang, of course, he needed some warmth… without her company, without the company of parents, it would be very lonely.

So not wanting to be lonely, finding a girlfriend or something… was also very normal, right?

Brother is just that kind of person, likes to act tough, keeps everything to himself, doesn’t want to talk.

But it’s okay, even if she has to go back for a long time, and it will be a long time before they see each other again… but from this time on, she will listen carefully to his troubles, be an understanding sister.

Ava smiled to herself as she thought this.

Watching the leaves swirl on the ground, the cold wind falling, she also felt much warmer.

‘Ava… do you want to get what you want?’

She murmured to herself.

And at that moment, suddenly a voice came from behind.

“Hey… is that Ava?”

Ava turned around in surprise and saw a somewhat familiar woman…

Hey, isn’t this… her brother’s neighbor?

“Yes…”

“I’m Zoe, your brother’s neighbor.”

She smiled as she approached Ava.

“Ah… Miss Zoe, hello…”

Zoe looked around.

“Hmm? Did your brother go to school?”

Ava nodded shyly.

“Yes, I just didn’t have anything to do, so I was just walking around.”

Zoe appeared thoughtful, then smiled at the young girl.

“You’re not busy, and I’m off today… how about coming to my place for a visit? We can chat, and it just so happens we can have lunch together.”

“Eh… can I? Is it convenient?”

Zoe shook her head.

“Of course, it’s convenient. I often invite your brother over for meals. Don’t worry, I live alone.”

“Ah…” The warmth seemed hard to refuse, and since the other party was her brother’s neighbor, Ava thought it wouldn’t be right to sour their relationship because of her. And the woman’s smile, looking at her, was really gentle, like a caring big sister.

“Then… I’ll be imposing.”

“Let’s go~”

Meanwhile, in a classroom where a young man was somewhat absent-mindedly looking at the sky outside.

His textbook was open, and he had written two lines on it.

[She knows everything that happened.]

[She thinks it’s a dream.]

“Sigh.”

The young man sighed emptily.

What is Ava doing now?