The Female Leads Truly Loves You - Chapter 80

I refuse to be mediocre
Caught completely off guard, utterly unprepared.

This must be the only time Sam was entirely without defense, aside from when he first encountered Angel.

He looked at the woman before him, Alice was still smiling. Even just two minutes earlier, the two could be described as incredibly close, their interaction brimming with ambiguity.

Yet, in the blink of an eye, the atmosphere shifted dramatically, becoming dangerous, eerie, and even suffocatingly tense.

Alice stared straight into his eyes, any attempt Sam made to avoid her gaze now seemed like it would expose a fatal flaw.

Sam wondered, where had he slipped up? That couldn’t be right; his performance had been flawless, neither overdone nor forced.

He had carefully thought through every move, including everything that happened tonight. But why would she suddenly say something like this?

Looking at the woman in front of him, Sam spoke with a puzzled and bewildered tone. “Hypnosis? You’re not a psychology teacher, are you…”

Alice smiled, her lips curving slightly. She reached out with her hand, now cleaned with a tissue, and gently caressed Sam’s face.

Her gaze seemed a bit yandere, but not to the extent that one would consider her insane. Right now, she was incredibly dangerous, perilously so.

As the woman gently stroked Sam’s brow and eyes, she looked into his eyes, trying to remain calm, and said, “Actually, from the very first time, my attempt to hypnotize you was unsuccessful, wasn’t it?

But unexpectedly, you’ve been playing along all this time. This makes me have to wonder, what is your purpose? Was it for the reward just now?”

She even guessed that the first attempt at hypnosis had failed!

Once the seed of doubt is planted, is it impossible for it to ever completely disappear?

Or is it that this woman was too suspicious from the start, never trusting Sam’s reactions? So why expose everything now? And even using footjob method as a reward.

Why take it to this step? Or did Sam reveal a flaw just now? Impossible. Sam couldn’t believe he would show any vulnerability at such a moment.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about… What hypnosis? The first time you attempted to hypnotize me? What does that mean? Does it mean that all this time… I’ve been under your hypnosis?” Sam’s frown made him look utterly convincing.

But for Alice, who had already settled on an answer, everything seemed false.

It’s like when you’ve already made up your mind about something, asking anyone else, no matter how many more people you consult, you still tend to go with your initial choice.

This is the essence of human nature; in fact, you tend to trust yourself more than anyone else.

Alice withdrew her hand, sighed softly, leaned back in her chair, and enjoyed the caress of the night breeze.

Looking up at the stars in the sky, she murmured into the night, “I’ve never been a happy person, even though to others my life might seem blissful. After all, having parents who are psychologists, it appears as though I’ve never wanted for anything…

But why, when they’re so skilled at counseling others, at persuading, at understanding all the theoretical knowledge, did they choose to control my life in every possible way?”

The sudden shift in topic caught Sam off guard. But he quickly realized this was just a preamble, a setup for why she doubted him in the first place.

So, he didn’t interrupt, waiting quietly instead.

Alice continued in a soft voice, “Under their demands, I had to wear certain clothes when I went out, come home at a specific time, eat specific things for each meal, and even the amount of money I spent and what I bought had to be controlled by them.

Where I went to school, what major I studied, what kind of person I became—all under their control… My life was like a precisely turning instrument. Sam, why do you think someone like me would want to become a teacher?”

A new question had arrived before the previous one had been resolved.

But Sam knew he had to answer.

“To become someone who guides others, rather than someone who controls a child like your parents did?”

Alice smiled and said, “At first, that’s indeed what I thought. But soon, I realized that wasn’t what I wanted at all. A person who has been controlled and manipulated for so long actually wants to turn around and control others.

I not only wanted to break the rules, I even found pleasure in touching the forbidden. On my eighteenth birthday, I wished that I could control others, and unexpectedly… after that day, it seemed like I really did gain that ability.”

Sam felt a chill run down his spine. Could such a powerful ability really be obtained just by making a wish?

It seemed unbelievable, but in the world of the female leads, such a reason appeared entirely plausible.

Alice narrowed her eyes, revealing an expression of enjoyment.

“Finally, with this ability, I was able to break free from my parents’ control. The matter of blind dates is somewhat beyond my control, given the difficulty of manipulating someone over the phone…

But I never imagined I’d one day meet someone as interesting as Sam. Not only do you ignore my control, not affected by me, but you even cooperate with me. Sam, what are you thinking? Can you tell me?”

Alice narrowed her eyes and tilted her head slightly, smiling, her silky hair resting on one shoulder.

Despite the seductive movement and graceful posture, it seemed almost as terrifying as a deranged killer asking how tasty your flesh is at that moment!

Sam now faced two choices. Continue to feign ignorance, insisting he knows nothing about hypnosis, then pretend to be deceived and storm off in a huff.

Or, he could admit he knew about the hypnosis and honestly tell her he was just worried she might use even stranger methods to influence him, so he reluctantly cooperated.

Is there any other option? Are these really choices?

As Alice’s gaze drew closer, Sam suddenly sighed, as if giving up resistance, and her expression seemed to say, “I knew it.”

Sam finally spoke up. “I didn’t expect the teacher to find out, did I make a mistake somewhere?”

Alice looked at Sam. “It’s not a big flaw, your acting is indeed excellent, but… my intuition tells me you weren’t hypnotized by me. You’re still in touch with Angel. If I’m not mistaken, that’s not a scar on your neck but a love bite.”

Sam smiled and calmly removed the bandage from his neck, revealing the not-yet-faded dark red marks.

Alice was somewhat surprised by Sam’s honesty at this moment; she had no idea what he was thinking but felt he was relatively sincere. However, she didn’t anticipate Sam being this honest.

“So, despite having someone as outstanding as Angel interested in you, why would you still cooperate with me? Are you hoping to benefit from me, like those men who have their cake and eat it too?”

This seemed like a fatal question, as if everything had come to the most dangerous point.

A conquest failure? A BAD ending punishment?

No, Sam would not fall at this moment.

Leaning back in his chair, appearing relaxed and nonchalant, Sam looked directly at the greatest danger.

“I have feelings for Miss Alice.” He said, leaving Alice momentarily stunned, caught off guard by his admission.

Watching Sam make this declaration, Alice’s expression flickered with confusion. “Feelings…”

“Just like Miss Alice’s attitude towards me, you must like me, right? At the very least, you feel affectionate towards me.”

“What makes you think that?” Alice frowned, realizing this Sam was completely different from what she had expected.

Rather than begging for mercy or admitting fault, he claimed to have feelings for her. What was this supposed to mean?

She didn’t even realize her momentary panic. But Sam just smiled and said, “It’s simple. If that weren’t the case, why would Miss Alice reward me like this? If not, you wouldn’t have asked me to join you at a bar on such a night. Am I wrong?”

Alice frowned again. “But even if I gave you a footjob, what does it matter? Even if I did feel some affection for you, I wouldn’t be foolish enough to invest my emotions and waste time on a man who’s unfaithful…”

“Wasting time? Is investing emotions a waste of time? Is being unfaithful really a mistake?” Sam directly questioned her in response.

Alice paused, “What do you mean… Isn’t that a mistake? I only accept people who like me and only me. If you have feelings for me and can break off your relationship with Angel, then I might consider…”

“Then I can only consider breaking off my relationship with you, Miss Alice.” Sam said decisively.

Alice was stunned, as if turned to stone. How could he say such a thing so easily? What did her companionship tonight amount to then?

The desires that had just begun to ignite, the thrill of hovering on the edge of the forbidden, —was it all to be destroyed in an instant?

A rich sense of unwillingness and indignation spread from the bottom of her heart. “You mean to choose Angel, right?”

Sam shook his head. “It’s just that Miss Alice doesn’t want to be chosen by me.”

“When did I ever say that… wait, you mean, you want both?!” Alice suddenly realized this dreadful possibility. Like a greedy pirate, he presented this terrible intention of infidelity with his handsome appearance.

Sam sighed helplessly. “When faced with something beautiful, everyone’s instinct is to want it all for themselves, much like Miss Alice wishes to touch the forbidden, desires a relationship with her student, and wants to control others’ lives. Am I worse than Miss Alice for that?”

Such words… Alice had never heard, nor seen such brazen honesty. Yet, she found herself unable to refute it.

As Alice struggled to find a rebuttal, Sam pressed on. “But then again, is Miss Alice really willing to give me up?”

“Why shouldn’t I be able to give you up?”

Sam replied with a smile, “I admit, sometimes pouring emotions into someone like me could be considered a waste. But it’s not just any waste. Even seemingly honest men can harbor the potential to be unfaithful; after all, men are such uncertain creatures.

But an ordinary man couldn’t offer you the completely unique experiences and radically different processes that I can, ensuring that your memories of me would be absolutely unparalleled, and possibly even without regret.”

“What kind of twisted logic is that… Sam, I really didn’t expect you to be this kind of person.”

“Then how about what you’ve done? Didn’t you say you hoped I wouldn’t be too involved with Angel, essentially suggesting… you want me all to yourself?”

Alice looked up, visibly irked. She knew her family background didn’t match Angel’s, but she refused to admit she was inferior to that girl in any other aspect.

Especially after meeting Sam, the desire to possess him completely unexpectedly surged within her.

While trying to hypnotize Sam with her gaze, she found herself being drawn in as well.

However, she was aware that this was a whirlpool, a crossroads that could alter her life. Yet, she resolutely dove into the vortex, chasing that feeling of the forbidden, the taboo, which couldn’t be experienced under normal circumstances.

Dangerous, yet captivating.

Only now did she realize that Sam was not simple, his ambitions even more grandiose than she had imagined.

So Alice looked up at Sam. “Indeed, I only accept you if I can have you to myself, not shared with anyone else. I am willing to give up a lot for you, even if it means being discovered by colleagues or potentially jeopardizing my career.

I’m prepared because I know such experiences are rare. But don’t get too smug. Rather than share you, I’d prefer to destroy you.”

So that’s how it is, Alice… I knew none of these female leads were simple.

But Sam had never expected to easily change such a female lead’s mind with mere sophistry.

So, his final move was revealed. “Then… do you think I have a chance?”

Alice’s gaze was resolute. “Impossible. I won’t agree, and Angel wouldn’t either.”

Sam looked at Alice with a smile, his tone calm.

“Then let’s compromise. Why not try, before graduation, to see whether Miss Alice can capture me, making me willingly belong to you… or if I can make Miss Alice willingly fulfill my grand ambition?”

“What is this supposed to be…” Alice widened her eyes. Was this a bet? Or a challenge? Where did his confidence come from?!

Sam was already standing up. “Of course, it’s clear that I cannot openly be with Miss Alice at school, as it would indeed affect your future, wouldn’t it? If you think it’s too risky and decide to give up, I can understand.

Then, from now on, we’ll simply be teacher and student, without any interference. It’s all up to you, Miss Alice. For now… let’s go back. You don’t have to rush to give me an answer.”

He extended his hand towards Alice. On his handsome face was a smile no woman could resist.

Like the purest sunlight.

Like the clearest dew.

“I am despicable, ambitious, and shameless. I know. But I won’t do anything that I’ll regret, just as I don’t want to miss out on something wonderful. Miss Alice, this is what I want to do, I refuse to be mediocre.”

His words, under the night sky, were like an ice pick breaking through a glacier, piercing Alice’s heart. Fiercely shaking her already tottering psychological defenses.